I think I've mislaid my public persona somewhere along the way. More and more I'm just myself, or sometimes not myself. Or as Over the Rhine put it, "more and more I'm secretly just me." It's hard to know how to present oneself without that framework, though, and I think I've been mostly failing at interacting with people except in one-on-one exchanges. It's an interesting dilemma, since authenticity is a laudable goal yet social interaction is valuable and to my thinking necessarily somewhat at odds with it.
I'm in a really good place mentally today; I think I really needed this time off work. I still love a lot of things about my job and the people on my team, but it's been overwhelming lately; the amount of stuff necessarily left undone due to workload builds up until I have trouble approaching it. And then that carries over to home and my dishes take over my kitchen. Today, however, I'm winning the war against both the dishes and the mental blocks.