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I think I've mislaid my public persona somewhere along the way. More… 
26th-Dec-2009 06:00 pm
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I think I've mislaid my public persona somewhere along the way. More and more I'm just myself, or sometimes not myself. Or as Over the Rhine put it, "more and more I'm secretly just me." It's hard to know how to present oneself without that framework, though, and I think I've been mostly failing at interacting with people except in one-on-one exchanges. It's an interesting dilemma, since authenticity is a laudable goal yet social interaction is valuable and to my thinking necessarily somewhat at odds with it.

I'm in a really good place mentally today; I think I really needed this time off work. I still love a lot of things about my job and the people on my team, but it's been overwhelming lately; the amount of stuff necessarily left undone due to workload builds up until I have trouble approaching it. And then that carries over to home and my dishes take over my kitchen. Today, however, I'm winning the war against both the dishes and the mental blocks.
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27th-Dec-2009 03:12 am (UTC)
I'm consistently "me" most of the time... but I think I know what you mean, sometimes you have to put on a specific social face and it feels a bit odd. I found it extremely odd to succeed at doing "outgoing happy person" at the craft show. It's a bit tiring but it's fun and it isn't *not* me, it's just a bit skewed.

Speaking of social time, I'd like to see you some time...
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